The
answer to our MUST-society
What
is the role of touch in haptonomy?
We
live in a must-society. The message we constantly receive
is: we MUST perform at work, we MUST be a good wife, we
MUST look good, we MUST, MUST,MUST. Our feelings tell us we
are tired, or that something just does not feel right, but
after years of intensive training we learn to shut that
feeling out. Rationality is the key, our head is where
everything is decided with no second opinions is asked. We
also live in a society where more and more people
experience a burn-out, are depressed, where women want to
get baby’s with anaesthesia just not to feel pain and where
parents do not connect with their children. All of this is
explained by using logical argumentations. But we tend to
ignore the fact that we had warning signs before things
became so bad. Before the burn out you already felt tired
and just completely done with what your were doing.
Nevertheless you had to continue because our society
expects you to perform. Parents are surprised that they do
not understand their children, while they had merely any
contact with them when they were little. Television
replaced actual contact and they grew up without the
necessary interaction.
Interesting
think is that we all know what is right for us when we are
little. Why is it that a baby cries on the lap of one
grandpa and not on the other’s? They rely on the fact that
they feel a difference in the intention of the action and
react by crying. Also as a baby you tend to touch
everything around you to learn what it is. Just seeing
something is not enough, no you want to grab it with your
hand and squeeze it.
It is
important to point out that haptonomy is nothing
supernatural or new. The most surprising thing is that it
is so basic and that everyone knows what it is and have
experienced it in the past. But because of it is so simple
it is not understood. Our logic tells us that it is not
possible to have such a simple solutions for problems that
seems so complicated. Our instinct in case of problems is
to get into defence. Put all our energy in protecting
ourselves from the problem and get as far as possible from
it. While our body tells us that it is too exhausting to do
that. Haptonomy will not be the answer to the problem, but
it will guide you on a path to understand and face the
problem differently. The problem will still be there but
you will be different and that will be an essential change.
To
understand haptonomy you have to know some basic rules.
First, you do not have to do anything. So no musts. Second,
you are able to face everything on you own, but that does
not mean that you have to be alone while doing that. And
finally third, it is ok to trust your touch and feeling.
This brings me to my problem formulation; ‘What is the role
of touch in haptonomy?’
After conducting both a literature research and interviews
I found complimentary arguments that support touch being
the core concept in haptonomy. But is not merely the
action, of for example placing the hand on the back of the
person, but the feeling and experience with which it is
intertwined. By touching someone on his back and asking him
to be aware of this contact you let a person experience
something. The person is first only aware of the fact that
there is a hand on his back, but when he feels deeper he
will be aware of the arm that is attached to that hand and
the person of who the hand is. Instead of thinking about
contact, you will feel and experience it, and this will
leave a mark in your memory. This might all sound rather
strange and I must say that I can understand why.
Haptonomy is not something you can learn or understand just
by reading about it, no it is an experience you have to
undergo. During the second interview my informant showed me
some basic exercises that made me understand what touch can
do without it being logical. When I was on the bed my self,
she asked me to feel my legs and I could clearly feel the
points that were touching the bed, my upper legs, my knees
and the top of my feet, but not the rest. Then she rubbed
my leg from top to bottom and a weird thing happened,
compared to my other leg this leg felt heavier and now I
could feel my whole leg. Of course this is merely a small
example of touch but you can try and imagine how it works
once you touch the actual centre of your body.
We tend to focus so much on our mind that our body is
disconnected from it. Although our body had the ground
intelligence. It tells us when it is cold, hot, but also
when something feels nice or not. But by not focussing on
the body and what feelings certain touches entail we miss
some important signals. By bringing our attention back to
the centre of our body we restore the connection of our
body. And perhaps it could have been done without touching
the person, but it would be a lot harder. Imagine someone
describing you what you should feel and then imagine him
just showing you how it feels by actually letting you
experience it. The experience is exactly what haptonomy is
about. Experiencing the importance of your own feelings and
the information that our body provides is. We seem to have
buried our ground intelligence and replaced it with
artificial intelligence that is called logic.
The sense of touch is fundamental to our existence. We are
all born with the ability to feel something in an
interaction. By giving someone a hug, by shaking someone’s
hand. But we perform the action without the right feeling
behind it. The reason that the role of touch is so
essential in haptonomy is because it is important in our
everyday life. We tend to mix up independence and being
alone. It is important to be independent, but that does not
mean that we do not need other people surrounding us to
support us. Sometimes you need a hug and sometimes a touch
can feel very wrong, but it is ok to feel that and it is
important to be aware of the different feelings we
experience in order to keep being connected with our body,
the people surrounding us and our environment.
Personal
note
The
whole research has been an amazing experience. In a few
weeks I went from knowing nothing what so ever about
haptonomy to actually experiencing the concept. The
interviews were so interesting, but also it was lots of fun
conducting them. I never thought that I would like it that
much. Finally I must say that now I know more about the
haptonomy it was quite an eye opener for me. I was also
fascinated by our anti-social society. I thought that it
was incredible how little we can interact in such a crowded
world. But of course that does not happen without problems.
Depressions, burn-outs and severe loneliness became normal
in our life. Haptonomy is so basic that we tend to overlook
it’s importance. It is sad to acknowledge the fact that we
need help to become in contact with our body and the people
around us. But it is still true. Therefore I would want to
conclude that haptonomy should be something that every
person has tried at least once. Perhaps it would make us
realize that were are going in the wrong direction on an
extremely high speed and we are shutting out our seatbelt
(our feelings) that were always there to protect us. We
need to touch and feel, because our ground intelligence is
there for a reason and it will never be replaced by logic.
Finally, I would like to genuinely thank my informants, for
their time, dedication and willingness to make me
understand the essence of haptonomy.
By Anna
Ozerova (student
of the Roosevelt Academy, Middelburg)